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11月25日 Can't fall asleepIt's tuesday today and i had to go to piano lesson after work. today was a bit stressed out as there are so many things waiting for me on my desk and i know there so many more coming. I start to consider if teaching is too much for me. my friends may say to me 'Get a life, Kai!' i do feel the same way sometimes.
ironically, i now even have more time to think and to find out what i really want. Up until now, i have no idea what i really want and how my future will be like. i had my future mapped out long ago. i wanted to have a family of my own and i wanted to be a father. However, my personality will be a major problem - i dont like dating.. .... i really want to date when i dont have a date. when i have a date, i dislike the date. ARHH!. Damn, if i had to say!. All in all, i dont know what i want. there seems to be a change in my perspective this year. i know what i am doing, yet, i am confused.
I turned on the telly the 1st thing i got home after the piano lesson. 'Maruko' was on Animax. Today's episode was about Maruko's insomnia. she couldnt fall asleep. when i was watching, the memory of the evening i couldn't sleep came to me and i thought about the reason. It is still abit painful though, although it isnt as serious as it was before. still, time is needed. someone said to me that i very often look into the sky these days. i didnt even notice myself doing it not if he told me. i dont know why i do it often. maybe it gives me a sense of peace and tranquillity. 11月10日 TrailwalkerYeah!! Completed the 2008 Trailwalker!! It was really tough but I overcame it with perseverance. I don’t have much of it but I do have a little =)
I took a day off from work for the event so that I could sleep a bit more before the event started. I got to 北潭凹 starting point with my dad at around half 12. Before that, I had lunch with dad in Sai Kung. When I got there, Nelson, Xavier and their parents were there already. I really have to say that Mr and Mrs Tam did a really great job as support team members. They were really supportive and really helpful. I really have to deeply thank them.
The event started at 2 sharp. I was a bit worried as I heard that some of the participants collapsed under the sun on the 7th. It was really hot on the 7th indeed but I kept drinking water, so I was sort of OK.
The whole 100KM walk took us 33hrs and 42mins. We didn’t sleep at all during the event and it was very tormenting, I can tell you that for sure. I was freaking tired and what more was that I couldn’t sleep. It was a really long 33hrs and 42mins. At some points I was thinking of getting a bus home and going straight to bed. Of coz, I was just thinking ^^
Mr and Mrs Tam were members of the support team and they were really helpful. My main support team members were Meow, Ying and Lio. They were extremely helpful. I really need to thank them deeply. They were so professional. The massage was great and it helped me a lot as I walked further toward the finishing line. Thanks again!!!
For myself, it was a challenge for me. I didn’t know that I could finish the whole 100KM. I wasn’t aiming at producing a good record. I only wanted to complete it. I took part in it because I wanted to see how far I could go. And, I did it! Never say No before you have actually tried it! ^^ Here are only some of the pics we took during the event. I will post more later! ^^
11月5日 ^^Today is my birthday and i should be happy. in fact, i dont feel happy at all. Yesterday was our school sports day and today is a day off. But i am at work now. got back in the morning and started some marking. i tried to sleep more but i just couldnt.
Two things... ... 1st, the event on the 7th have been keeping me awake. maybe i am nervous. well, the nervousness is only a minor part of the problem. the 2nd is what has been bothering me most. Anyway lar. things that i cannot control will always be out of control. Maybe i should take it easy =_________=
just had lunch with Meow and Ng sir and also Mr Hong in Gold Coast and it was sort of Ok lar. the food was good and thanks Ng sir for the lunch.
two more days... ... 11月2日 what should i doCouldnt fall asleep last night. i remember the last time i looked at the time before i could really got some sleep was already half 6 in the morning. And ironically, i got up at 8... ... =_= my heart sank and sank and sank and for the whole evening, i kept thinking about what i know. it is a truth that i didnt want to know. It got into me a big time. I didnt mess it up but it messed me up instead.
The big day is coming and i have doubt if i can complete the whole event. if the feeling gets into me during the hardest part(s) =__=, i dont know if i wil become very hysterical and give up.
I need time and pls give me time
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